I’ve been sorta crappy at my life these past few weeks as my book deadline has approached- not sleeping, eating tons of junk, ignoring my kids, half-assing the blog, not acting like an idiot on Twitter. It’s been all stress and writing all the time, with occasional breaks to go to the doctor.
Most of all, I’ve been bummed that I haven’t been able to do more for Sandy Relief since this book has totally owned me (and you guys BETTER buy it with what I’ve been through! [shakes fist]), and I’ve been physically rehabbing from the accident in October. I know I’m one person, I’m not superhuman, that some people have told me that I’ve done enough, but I still don’t feel like it. I still feel sad and worthless against Sandy, still feel heartbroken for all my friends I see on Facebook struggling every single day. We own a bakery- we’re not saving the world.
Then good people like you give me perspective and remind me why we do this in the first place. We’re featured again on Fab.com this week- we’re selling hot cocoa, not rebuilding houses or counseling people. Last night I got this letter:
I just received my order of cocoa today, ordered it from Fab.com. I really needed a treat, this did the trick. Have been a tad stressed, been doing a lot of cleaning, fixing and repairing from the flood. Having a water view, not so great, just another reason for not loving living in Brick, NJ. I digress….obsessing about finding the perfect cocoa mix, I decided to bite the bullet and spend an amount I never thought I would for cocoa. So happy I did. It is uber scrumptious. Wish I could get to Brooklyn to thank you personally but it is a bit of a schlep. It was a bad year….this made it better. You are truly appreciated.
That’s the nicest letter anyone has ever sent me. I know how much food means to me- how every time I miss my grandmother I go have linguine at New Corner and don’t feel sad anymore, or how my heart is totally broken over the news that Hinsch’s is closing for good and will probably become something awful like an Arby’s, or how I ate a cake a day during the holidays because they were KILLING ME. I got into food to make people happy, and sometimes between all the invoices and paperwork and other glamorous stuff, I forget we are actually responsible for some of those amazing moments ourselves.
So now- let’s stop being sad and start being awesome again!
This Saturday, there’s TWO things you can do. First is a series of walks in Sandy-affected neighborhoods- “rallies”, really- that are raising awareness of how badly the government has failed our neighbors, and pleading for support. You can participate in Brooklyn (Coney & Gerritsen), Queens (Rockaway), Staten Island, Long Island, and four spots in New Jersey. Click on the flyer above to go to their Facebook page and learn more!
The second event Matt and I will be in attendance for- Shame on Sandy at Highline Stages. Tickets are expensive (and almost gone), BUT you’ll be eating food from Mario Batali, Michael White, April Bloomfield, Daniel Boulud, Eric Ripert, Jonathan Waxman and more of the best chefs in all of America. It’s a bargain when you think of it that way, AND 100% of the proceeds are going to the Mayor’s Fund.
And today, go get some cupcakes or hot cocoa or brownies, and make yourself happy. You probably deserve it- I’m sure of it.
Oatmeal Cream Pie: Brown sugar oat cake, marshmallow buttercream, oat crisp
Bluth: Chocolate banana cake, chocolate buttercream, roasted walnuts, ganache
Butterbrew: Butterscotch soaked cake, butterscotch buttercream, edible gold dust
Car Bomb: Chocolate Guinness stout cake, Jameson whiskey ganache, Bailey’s buttercream