Hey.

So I don’t know how to write today like I’m ok, because I’m not. We’re a week before Christmas, and I should be talking about cutting off mail orders or how you should order cupcakes/whoopies/etc for your holiday table. And I know no one on earth is coming to the Robicelli’s website for topical news, but it doesn’t seem right to go about business as usual like everything is ok.

I’ll say this: we are a mom and pop. Literally. Meaning we have two little boys, ages 4 and 5 at home. And like every person on earth who is a parent, we are hurting more than I can articulate. I have never even imagined I could love anything the way I love these kids. And it’s nearly heartbreaking in the fact that no matter what I do for them, no matter what I say, no matter how many adventures I take them on or presents I buy- it will just never seem like enough to make them realize how I feel. That I love them so much that I feel that I’ll explode. That I live every moment of my life just to make them proud of me. That every day I try to be the kind of person who is worthy of the love of the two most perfect little boys I have ever known.

I wanted to write something funny today. I wanted to make jokes and put up funny pictures and close out our busy season hoping that you’ll buy buy buy. But I, like every other parent in the world, am hurting far too bad right now to just conduct business as usual.  Because the moment you become a parent, your empathy gene goes into overdrive. You can barely watch the news on a normal day, much less how we watched this weekend. You become the person who looks at every human being as somebody’s son, somebody’s daughter. Your heart becomes a thousand times bigger to let more people in, to let more love in. And when we open our hearts to all that love, we open it to all the hurt out there as well. When other parents hurt, we hurt with them, because we understand how it is to love in a way none of us had ever dreamed possible.

So I will be brief today: if you’d like to place an online order for Christmas, today is the last day to do so- final UPS 2-day shipment is going out on Wednesday morning. We are taking cupcake/etc orders for Christmas eve/day delivery in NYC until Saturday. Everything is delicious and we won’t let you down.

Before I get to today’s flavors, I leave you with this. This is my favorite Christmas carol, and I share it on this blog every year as it’s not the most well known. I won’t pretend that I haven’t spent all weekend crying, wondering how I’m supposed to feel the joy I should during Christmas, how I celebrate despite all the pain I, and all of us, are feeling. These past three days, more than I ever have before, I’ve found this song as comforting as a soft blanket. I pray that maybe it will bring you some comfort, too.

I hope that you all find something beautiful in the world to smile about today. 

Clockwise from front: The Hansel, Chocolate Chestnut, Eggnog, Chocolate Candy Cane

The Hansel: Gingerbread cake, white chocolate pudding, speculoos buttercream, white chocolate dipped gingerbread cookie

Chocolate Chestnut: Chocolate cake, chocolate chestnut buttercream, candied chestnuts

Eggnog: Eggnog cake, eggnog buttercream, fresh nutmeg

Chocolate Candy Cane: Mint chocolate chip cake, peppermint buttercream, crushed candy canes.